Sometimes, you often times wonder and look at yourself in the mirror, and all you see are the flaws within you. Noone is perfect, yet the flaws presents itself in such ways that you cannot hide from the truth. You see other people, your friends, your family, their traits, their strength and you often wished how you could be like them in some small ways. You sometime tell yourself, ‘how i could be as confident as he is’ or ‘how i could have a higher self esteem that she is having right now’. And when you look at yourself, it is very difficult to see your strengths that other people would hope to have that they dont. All you see are your weaknesses.
I once came across a scene in this anime, “Honey and Clover” and one of the main character was saying something along the lines of:
“Sometimes you avoid someone, because that someone is an exact opposite mirror image of who you hoped to be, and facing that person is a very scary experience. It is a reflection of your weaknesses”
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Hello, Jasrie. It’s been a long time since I’ve been here. I hope my English is better than last time, at least a little bit.
You’re absolutely right. I’ve been through this for a few months now, avoiding even to look myself in the mirror, so I wouldn’t see my own flaws. But, I know it’s not going to make any good for me, I mean, feeling like this. Though, it’s so hard….
And that’s right! They’re all wrong when they say we can’t learn anything from manga and anime. What you’d seen in Honey and Clover is absolutely true. Ironically, I just had the same thought just before visiting you now. “Jasrie might be just great, right now, he’s smart, he can go anywhere he wants to, he can do anything he wants to, he’d already been to Japan!”. That’s true, that’s what I thought!
Come on, man, YOU’VE BEEN TO JAPAN! 😀 This is the dream of my life, and you’ve made it already! I look up to you, seriously!
I don’t know what you’re going through, but I really hope you can find real peace within, as I hope it for myself as well.
Regards! o/