I had some time to review my blog and to see what I have written down here. Honestly, it kinda sucks. I haven’t been updating much for the past year, and most of my posts are just simply uninspiring. I have never written anything thoughtful or reflective of late and lately I just can’t seem to find a reason to. To find an excuse of not having the time and place to sit down and blog about my life and the things that have been happening around me is just unacceptable. I made a personal promise to keep to blog going no matter what. To keep writing even though it may just entail just a few sentences. I have been writing about my life for many years now, judging from the long list of archive. Now, i think there is some truth to the excuse that I am making. I simply do not have the time or the right moment to really sit down to do some reflections. Lately, I have also blog less not because I am lazy, but sometimes, the things that I want to write about seems so trivial. My problems, my worries, it seems that there are bigger worries to worry about, and I just shrug it off.
I know that it can be very therapeutic to write all your thoughts down, big or small, silly or serious. Somehow, I feel that I am restraining myself not to reveal too much about myself. Why do I do that? I’m not sure. Perhaps I just don’t want to say anything that might come back to haunt me in the future. Or maybe I am just overreacting and that I should be afraid to speak my mind. I don’t let my tongue loose and my fingers itchy and use the internet as a platform to troll, defame or just rant mindlessly. I sometimes want to find certain topics to write about, topics that affect me. But i just can’t seem to find what to write anymore.
I have considered to lower my expectations. Instead of writing long passages, I should just devote what ever little time I have and just write shorter entries. Shorter, but not necessarily losing the meaning of blogging. It would not be twitter 140-character style of microblogging, or the long-form writing. I would consider writing short entries, that would only need 30 seconds to 2 minutes of your attention.
So from now on, I am going to renew my commitment to write shorter entries, but more often. Perhaps I can try writing at least 2 times a week. Will I be able to do it? We shall see.