Who am I kidding? I don’t think this is working. I tried so hard to keep it together, to keep this group together. But I feel under appreciated. I feel like I’m being used, only when they need me, discard me when I’m useless. Just another person, insignificant. My efforts, down the drain. Why bother? They are not there for me when I needed them most. Coming up with excuses. I am willing to move mountains for them. This is a classic example of blind loyalty. Like a stupid dog who goes after the owner, even when the owner discards the dog away. Im the dog who doesn’t know when to let go and move on.
They are my good friends. But I don’t know if they see me this way.