It is the least of my concerns and rightly so.

NO I cannot let it take over me, the feelings of guilt and envy, of trying too hard only to face disappointment. I cannot let it have its way and take over my life. Yes time is running short, but that does not mean it will go away forever. I cherish our friendship more than anything else, though imperfect it may be, I must not turn a blind eye on the fact that friends are there for you no matter what and that all you need to do is to reach out. Likewise, I will continue to support that person in any way I can.